leaving, loving, living

haunted - by linh.ngân on Flickr

Awake again

I yawned and then

I noticed it’s still dark outside, and it’s cold

 

I went out for a walk

and to myself I talked

I realized that you were no more on my side

 

Seems you’ve forgotten ’bout the battle we were fighting

Was that a white flag you were waving?

 

.:.

Every single day I remember

Every single day we had together

Every single time I realize that we can never really go back

 

Every single step along the way

Every single step keeps getting harder

But if it’s the only way to live in the present

I’ll forget the past and learn to love again

And I wait for the next lyrics…

the tip

I was tagged in a photo on Facebook recently.

Kalokohan! wahahaha - ni Jayson

I was tagged, “andaming alam, kaso madamot sa assignment”. (top-right)

If I might add, madamot din ako sa mga quizzes at examinations.

I know a lot will hate me for this – already a number of people do, but I have to do it.

It is easy to be the passenger, but wouldn’t it be better if you were the one driving? You will be the one responsible for whatever may happen, and you will be in full control.

jump - by Joshua Davis on Flickr

Let’s go apply that in school.

Let’s say you copied your assignment from your classmate’s. What good would that do to you?

• You might get good grades. Grades you don’t deserve, grades which belong to your  classmate, not you.
• You have someone to blame case you get low grades. Now your classmate becomes the one responsible, not you. Immature. Lame.
• It makes life easy. Oh you want something easier? Drop your studies. You don’t belong in school.

Now, let’s see a different situation.

You did your assignment by yourself. You did not plagiarize whatsoever. You used every source and resource you could possibly find. (and oh, bee-tee-double-you, there are sources of info aside from the INTERNET. ) Now, what do you get?

• Laughter for your wrong answers. Look at those who are laughing. Either they copied their work from the ‘generous class genius’, or they are self-proclaimed know-it-all, ADHD patients.
• Compliment for your correct answers. Smile. Be proud. You deserve it.

The same goes for quizzes and examinations.

Guilty, too

So, just to make it clear: Hindi ako nagmamalinis.

I am guilty, too, of the stuff written above. I do cheat at times, but I cannot cheat on anything aside from assignments. People who know me well can prove that. Even my fourth year high school adviser can attest to that.

Silhouette - by zachd1_618 on Flickr

Point is

This post is not for everybody – though technically, everybody can read it – it is only for my friends, for whom I care.

If I am a friend to you, you should accept that I won’t always say pleasant things about you, to you.

Come, friend, stand up with your own feet, you don’t need a walking cane stick (at least, not yet). Use your own mind, you don’t need to always depend on others’.

End

Every single person you depend on – your parents, grandparents, siblings, relatives, friends, and everyone else – will perish. Like it or not, you will have to learn to live without them.

But

You don’t have to be completely independent. Anytime you need help, you know Who to turn to.

The Brilliant…s?

One more final examination today, and the first ever semester in this college life of mine will be finished. As for whether I pass this or not, that remains to be seen.

Anyway, it was fun. It was exciting. It was a fast-paced action film. It was a slow drama. It was, in short, a bit of everything.

The End of Chapter I – Book I

I’ve never experienced such a mixture of people: the funny, the gorgeous, the lovely, the emo, the sunshine, the intelligent, the wise, the ‘wais’, the low-profile, the star, the ‘pechay’, the DOTA boys, the real, the good-mannered, the brilliant(no s). Having people with different personalities kept the class’s story exciting and not boring.

But sadly – and this I have to admit – I noticed that not everyone carried with them the required desire, or motivation, to win this course. It could be that the ‘college’ feeling have not sunk yet into their minds, or there could be other reasons. I hope there were, or I hope there was. Even a single valid reason will convince me that they want – and need – to finish this course using their own minds as their weapons.

Anyways, who am I to judge? I do accept these people for who they are, because they’re also a part of the cast of the film called my life. I do assume I’m a part of theirs, too.

The Biggest Problem

If there was one major problem I met, it was that there exists a computer at home, but I could not use it when I needed to. I couldn’t use it well.

Imagine this:

I’m studying C++. There are things I want to learn aside from what we’re taught (because we were taught very little, and it’s up to us, students, if we want to expand the knowledge). Let’s say I want to learn about ‘pointers’ – which, I heard, is the best feature of C++. I cannot do that. Why? What can I learn if I have less than an hour to use a computer? If I remember correctly, this is college. We’re not learning 1 + 1 anymore.

The Hope for Chapter II – Book I (Two If Statements)

If there’s one thing I’d wish to have next semester, it would be a computer I can use freely, or the freedom to use a computer when I need to.

If there’s one person I’d like to see next semester, it would be…